nosthalgia

I know I don't want you but it feels good this nosthalgia about you a passion seed left behind never giving you up sometimes it fills up our heart sometimes our eyes with tears it's no sadness no only nosthalgia of how I felt for you for me for us I remember it was strong intense sweet deep and is no longer it still lives in the memory a phisycal sensation that frees itself and spreads all over the body and comes with tears yes I low my eyes when it happens and walk it around by myself and go on with my life it keeps me company this nosthalgia for it comes along by my side a ideal image of you in a parallel universe that is a perfect match with my own there you have the perfection we dream of when we fall in love there you have the realtionship we dreamt of everytime we fall in love there you have the relationship we imagine for ourselves it exists after all in a limbo whre everything becomes possible and I do believe we forge our ties in a time that carries ethernity within I sigh when nosthalgia comes and reminds me of all sure things and reasons forgotten in small fights and I also recall the fantasy where I imagined you that is so closely related to the nosthalgia of you together they are like two sisters two halves of the same entity only parted by random ocasion for the first one dream us before and the other after they must be twin souls do you see after all how possible it is even when in the middle rests the meeting the explosion that leaves no room for nothing else but the fire that burns us out and everything else is a painful birth a restless fight in the muddy life which is so unlike our love a safe harbor useless fight as when nosthalgia comes we know love goes on is not lost is right by our side the shadow that follows us through life if you turn around you can see it glued to you only most of the time you don't pay attention you don't think of it but it's all right because it is forever and perfect and just like the first dream